Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
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8:13 pm
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today has been awful. I've had to live with my father for the past 3 months. I've really started to get use to it. now i have to go back and forth again between houses. i dont want to. but i dont know what to do about either way my final decision is going to have many downs. i'm so confused i dont even know where to begin to sort things out.
current mood:  confused
current music: nothing at the moment
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Friday, March 18th, 2005
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7:34 pm
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It's been a long time since i've updated i know. I've had a tough life since christmas evening. I had a break down that night. I've been living with my father ever since. I haven't been online for a really long time either. I havent talked to alie much, or joe, or really nebody i've met online.
I've actually been really sick this week. I was in the hospital yesterday. It was really weird. All of a sudden it just hit me and I couldnt breathe. I was so scared. I still am. Something isnt right. I need to talk to Cal but i cant get a hold of him..
current mood: confused
current music: Blue burns Orange - Hawthorne Heights
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Friday, December 10th, 2004
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6:48 pm
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I've been really busy lately. I've had a whole bunch projects for school. I'm doing well in rifle team... but my boyfriend isnt talking to me.. i dont kno what to do... i feel kinda alone.. i've found myself feeling a little depressed lately..
current mood:  depressed
current music: TDG
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Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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9:14 pm
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I'm not very happy. The guys on the rifle team think they're soo much better than the girls and that pisses me off! I'm just as good, if not better than them! I'm feeling down today too. Dont really know y, but i am. I passed out this weekend and stopped breathing. I had a brush w/ death i guess u could say. It was kinda scary. Turns out i was dehydrated and i had a drug overdose. I was taking too many meds at once. But i wasnt feeling well, i was dillusional (sp?), i couldnt help it.
current mood: depressed
current music: TDG
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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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6:29 pm
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I started shooting in kneeling position tonight. It's not as easy as i thought it would be. I was a little unsteady, but i have 2 qualifying bulls for fifth bar. Not too bad.
I'm still not feeling well. I feel really weak and i'm not sure y. Oh well.
current mood:  tired
current music: Linkin Park
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Sunday, November 21st, 2004
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6:32 pm
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I cant wait til wednsday. I get to go to the lake and i get to see my boyfriend! Yay!!! I'm actually mad at him right now because he got to go to the Carribean islands. Not fair!
current mood:  excited
current music: Encore
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Thursday, November 18th, 2004
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6:22 pm
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I'm really tired. Pretty bored. I have divorced parents and my dad wants me to stay w/ him for a week. I'm not sure if i want to. I'm pretty darn stressed out too. Too many projects at one time. Help! I wrote a poem today. Its a big surprise. I hardly ever write poems for no reason.
current mood: tired
current music: Eminem - Mosh
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Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
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8:49 pm
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Today was horrible. I had a blood test, and it looks like i may be having complications again. I had luekemia when i was younger. I was tested like two months ago and i just now got the results. I've been so upset tonight. As much as i hate to admit it, i'm scared. But they're people out there worse than me. Like brians mum, she's in a coma (sp?).
current mood: depressed
current music: Evanescence
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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
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8:21 pm
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I didnt shot as well today at practice. Not a surprise. I didnt really have a very good day. I'm pretty sure that i flunked biology test today. I'm also pretty sure that i flunked the pop quiz that we had in math too... Plus my mouth has really been getting myself in trouble. And the thing is, i didnt say any smart ass remarks! That pisses me off!
current mood:  pissed off
current music: Three Days Grace- I hate everything about u
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Monday, November 15th, 2004
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6:35 pm
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I'm really hyper today. What a surprise. I shot really well at rifle practice tonight. I've passed Sharpshooter and have two qualifying shots for First Bar. Not bad for a girl. I have a Bio test tomorrow, and my research report will b due on wednsday.
Today in orchestra my stand partner lost two pieces of music, our conductor got really mad. She ended up crying... weird. Jenny and Ashly got detention in orchestra! How the hell do u do that?! They were stuck at afterschool for an hour.
current mood:  bouncy
current music: GC - SOS
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Sunday, November 14th, 2004
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3:44 pm
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I spent my morning at church (as usual), i was there from 7:30 - 12:45. Then I went swimming at Sheridan (as usual), i love to swim, and it gets my mind off things. I also helped out at a bake sale. I'm raising money so i can go on a mission to Hati. Wish me luck!
current mood: bored
current music: Three Days Grace - Burn
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Saturday, November 13th, 2004
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7:46 pm
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All my friends seem to using these live journals. At first i was a little skeptical, and i still am a little bit, but i've decided to give it a try.
I tried to make my own layout... didnt turn out so well did it. Oh well! it was worth a shot.
current mood: confused
current music: Linkin Park - Dont Stay
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